The Elephant

Howdy!
It's been a while - and that's because I haven't had much to report. I DID complete a 10k, which I turned into an 8 miler, so I could earn my medal from my virtual race :-) 

But, other than that and a mile-ish nature walk, to quote something I saw from Hank Smith:

"March: My fitness is at rock bottom

May: Rock bottom has a basement"

As my body is "relaxing" and I see that in the mirror - it's time to get back on the main floor!

I also wanted to share this:

https://www.elephantjournal.com/2015/10/understanding-the-language-of-narcissistic-abuse/

I look back as some of my experiences that I've had and wonder "what was I thinking?!" And, to be completely vulnerable - it's something I look ahead towards the future with a bit of trepidation. I've been "fooled" before - I felt cared for, cared about, important. Then, slowly - like the example of a frog in a pot of water with the burner turned on - the water heats up and the frog is COOKED before it even knows it. It's actually quite scary - can I trust myself again? And, if I do - and I end up in a relationship in the future, I feel - at this point in my life, that I'll always be waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'll be waiting for the "gotcha" of bliss and happy like I've experienced before.

The only thing that, perhaps, allows me hope - I am KNOWING now, AND *I* am getting healthier now. I am learning what healthy looks like. What I'm worth. And, that's everything lovely and of good report.

Anyways, Sparkle on, my peeps. Sparkle on.